Monday, May 28, 2007

time can be so slow and so fast at the same time


Friday is the last day of the shop until I get moved and settled. Im having a hard time keeping up and I dont have much of a support system here to help keep me going.The kids have been helping me take pictures and weigh the last few things Im posting but other than that Im trying to do too many things at once. I need to focus on packing and moving.If you are interested I did mark all of my softies down. I want to take as little with me as possible. Anyone in az want to come and haul away a bunch of vintage crap? I have other crap too. Its craptastic around here :)
Im getting so anxious about moving I can barely breath.It makes me feel like I did when Paul and I first started this journey 2 years ago. My heart beats fast when I think about him.I look at his picture way too much.I want to keep him on the phone forever.Did you know that one time I rode the bus 16 hrs just to see him for less than 4? I had it bad. Still do.Ive spent the last year talking about when this time comes and here it is catching me unawares and unprepared.lolHis family is working hard to help him find a house and get ready for the move.I really appreciate that,make me miss all of the family I left and the way things used to be. I dont think we would be able to do this without them. In fact I know we couldnt.Its been a really long hard rode for us and separation is never easy I really think we deserve to have a good life together and I really believe we will.Until then Im just hangin on!!!