summer in arizona. and i dont think its going away this time. time to hide during the day and adjust the schedule so everything gets done at night. its 1:16 am right now. the kids and dogs are all sleeping and the only noise is the fan. which i love love love.makes me homesick and miss taking naps at my grandmas. theres not even the noise of police helicopters which is rare.
ive heard people say that they cant sleep without city noises and could never imagine that being true. i grew up with the sounds of crickets and huge skies full of tons of stars. you could go months without ever hearing the sounds of an ambulance or fire engine. its not going to be long and i will be hearing new noises.its been so long that paul and i have been apart its hard to believe its only a few short months away and i will be living in san diego. this is a very big year for us. first off my oldest is turning 21 my second oldest 18,my oldest daughter 16, and my youngest 13. all important milestones in a life.and all at once in one year. i couldnt have planned it any better. and we are also moving to california and starting a new life.. makes me think i should buy a lottery ticket. i look back at when i had my oldest and what i wanted for him and the dreams i had. all i ever really wanted for my kids was to be respectful to all living things and to be kind and i figured if they had that everything else would fall into place. keep in mind i was only 16 at the time i wasnt thinking about what colleges they would go to or jobs they would have. but you know, i DID raise very respectful kind kids just like the kid that i was set out to do.and im not sure what path their lives will take but iam sure of that and proud of them. when they were little and i would get mushy like this i would wake them up or try to just to kiss them and tell them i love them. now that they are teenagers do you think i could get away with that? lol maybe i will just go wake up the dogs....
lyrics from scene aesthetics bird and boat
im going to try to make something related to this for one of the special bdays
If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky
You can hide underneath me and come out at night
When I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine
You can sky rocket away from me
And never come back if you find another galaxy
Far from here, with more room to fly
Just leave me your stardust to remember you by
If you'll be my boat, I'll be your sea
Depth of pure blue to provoke curiosity
Ebbing and flowing, and pushed by a breeze
I live to make you free
I live to make you free
And you can set sail to the west if you want to
Pass the horizon 'til I can't even see you
Far from here, where the beaches are wide
Just leave me your wake to remember you by
If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky
You can hide underneath me and come out at night
When I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine
You can sky rocket away from me
And never come back if you find another galaxy
Far from here, with more room to fly
Just leave me your stardust to remember you by
Stardust to remember you by.
